JUST PEACHY

Last night I sat in bed Planning a trip to Hawaii in my little dream world. I hit all my favorite vacation sites on the internet and started dreaming. Pete was on the phone with his brother and I was waiting patiently for him to give me his undivided attention. They talked and I dreamed of getting out of Utah and this terrible weather we have been having. I have depression and it is the worst January through April. Or until the sun decides to grace us with its presence. I don't know what it is but I never feel that way in the Summer the sun is just therapy for me. Most people call it seasonal depression. I hate admitting that I am a depressive person but for me it is real. Most of the time I am in denial about it hoping I will some how find my way out of it on my own. I usually do and have not been on medication for years now. All though, I did go to my doctor this past month and she gave me a prescription. That was weeks ago and it is still sitting in my purse unfilled. I am going to wait until Spring is completely here and winter is completely gone and see how I am doing then. ANYWAYS...........I quickly realized last night that Hawaii was not a realistic escape for me at the present time. So then I started dreaming about San Diego, still not realistic. Then I thought I am just going to run away to St. George for a day and sit under a palm tree and soak in the sun. I haven't packed and left yet so maybe that plan isn't that realistic either. I kind of came out of the fog this morning when I looked out my window and saw these images(BELOW) and thought everything is going to be JUST PEACHY. I love living behind this Peach orchard and in its own way it is so beautiful to me. Our kids spend hours out there and in the summer the Peaches are divine. For now I have filled my home with sounds of Jack Johnson's relaxing Island music, MANGO PEACH wax scents sit on my warmer filling my home with tropical scents, and all my blinds and curtains are open letting in the little sunshine that's there peeking through the clouds every once and a while!!! I am going to buy some beautiful fresh flowers to put in my kitchen and bedroom and try my hardest to stay energized!!! And as always I have my awesome Husband and kids to keep me going and they are my sunshine most days!!!